A month ago you were telling me how you thought nothing mattered as long as your rich and smart.
Now your new years resolution is to do more charity work.
What. The. Fuck.
so you wont change your bitchass ways for your friends, but you will for some popular guys. screw you.
the reason i like telling people my secrets on honesty box is because if they react badly i can just walk away. that's the problem with other people knowing your innermost works... you can never accurately anticipate what they'll think or how they'll react. if they react badly or you just don't like their reaction you can't take back what you've trusted them with... you can't just pretend that they don't know anymore... you have to live with it. i'm not ready to live with it... not any of it.
i have an eating disorder which every1 thinks i got better from but really im going back to where i was at my worst but the thing is it feels good.
it scares me how little i am able to feel now. i laugh at my own pain like its nothing. i havnt been able to cry for weeks, even though i really need to. what the hell is wrong with me?
